As of June 18th I will be officially finished with highschool. For life. It's ridiculous because I feel like I am still that crazy little kid that would climb trees and pretend to be an Indian every day...
But I'm not going to be all nostalgic about my previous life, for although it was grand, there are even more amazing things awaiting for me. So rather than pining for what was, I will ecstatically look forward to what is coming, in the very near future.
Exams have begun and I had my first one today which was not actually an exam, for it was for my PAL class and it was only a test of our physical fitness and to see how it has progressed through the year. HURRAY. Yes it was oh so thrilling...Tomorrow I have Math, and then on Thursday it will be English and Biology. Math and Bio are my dreaded ones; English is easy for me...
So wish me luck for I am sure I will need it for the aforementioned.

"tomorrow, tomorrow, i'll be old tomorrow, its only a day awaaayyy"
yeah thats right. only a few more hours of 17 left. and it is sad because i liked this age. now people will ask me how old i am and it will be worse because 17 is kind of an age where you're allowed to be stupid and act like a retard, but 18...i don't know something about it sounds veritably ancient. lol.
*sigh*
oh well, i'll be 17 and 366 days. and so on...until i decide that its time to accept the fact that i'm 18. haha.

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The world may fall apart around me, but you know what? I'm still going to be happy.
I'm tired of 'going with the flow' and allowing everything that happens around me to affect me in a negative way. I'm tired of having little tiny things bother me so deeply, so today was the beginning of a new era for me.
And although I still had my moments of letting things bother me, it was so much better to be happy, and back to my laid back old self. I've missed it.
The key is to step back and realign your direction and to find where you're headed in life and what is standing in your way, and then you rise and conquer. Speaking of such things, (actually it's completely unrelated, but we'll pretend) there's this awesome site which is as follows: [link] and it has some pretty rad quotes on it, and I am not mildly obsessed with learning latin, for I find it to be a fascinating language...I'd also like to learn Greek and Hebrew, but for right now I'll focus on Latin. Anyway, some of the quotes made me burst into laughter because they were so ridiculously random...anyway, that is my pointless story for this night.
Someday I'll upload some stuff, as soon as I burn the CD with all of my pictures on it...and go to a place that has "real internet" WOOOOO
Love and Peace to all

So I just recieved this email with a link to a couple of news sites, and they were warning everyone about this new form of meth that is coming along, made to specifically attract the younger generation. It is made in the form of candy, flavoured, and made to look like it. I believe it said they put it in ice cream too. So children have the potential of unbeknowingly accepting this "candy" and becoming hooked on meth. Personally I find this absolutely sickening to think that there are people out there so desperate to make money so they can buy their own, that they would stoop to the level of making kid-attractive meth to sell to them, because they are aware that they must catch the next generation while they are still in their younger years, and will have no choice but to be druggies for the rest of their lives. It makes me sick to think that my little brother will have to grow up in such a twisted world where these things are going to be considered normal, and where it will not be safe to eat various
things like that for fear that they may contain methamphetamine. (sp?)
I hope I'm not the only one who finds this completely revolting, because if I am, I will be even more discouraged with the state of the world.
Reason number 557 why I am NEVER have children. It would only be cruel to put a child through the rigours of every day life in the world that we live in today; and from the way that I see it, it will only get worse.

i'm sick of many things right now and yet i cannot seem to put my finger on what in particular. i want to run through a green grassy field with daisies growing in it whilst the sunshine beams upon my form, and then i kind of want to flop down right in the middle of the field andddd to look up at the sky for like hours on end. don't ask me why, cause i have no idea. just sounds like fun to me.
anyway. i want to go home...wait i am home. i want to go to austria, (etc) because they have a certain gazebo that i would like to visit...haha. andddddddddd. i want to fly. no not in an actual aeroplane, but with my arms outstretched. i want to paint a picture, but i am incapable of that type of art. i want to feed the hungry children in africa, but i have no money or food. i want war to end. i want peace to become a part of everyone. i want to not be selfish ever again. i want others to learn to care for others rather than just running over them with words and actions. i want people to...realize their need for Jesus. And the same for me. i think i should stop this little rampage...haha.
i just want to do something new because i'm getting sick of ruitine and even more than that, just no variation, or little variation at least. there is so much out there in the world to experience and i feel as though i am wasting my time being here learning about logarithms, which i will never use again. among many other wondrous things.
i want to see a unicorn
i....want to go to bed.
peace